Scripture Case Pattern

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Who said...

Pregnancy is beautiful?? They must have never been pregnant, because I sure ain't beautiful during pregnancy. How can anyone still look beautiful with an extra 90 pounds of fat hanging all over them? Personally, I have never felt more unattractive than I do when I'm pregnant. During my pregnancy with Gavin, I was so embarassed of my appearance that I barely let family see me pregnant. I think Tim's family only saw me once before I gave birth. This time around, they've been unfortunate enough to see me many times...I'm sorry. I see my sister-in-laws, and get insanely jealous of their hot, tight bods and I wish longfully that one day I may be somewhat skinny again so I don't feel like THIS around them. I just want my body back!! I hate that ok?
I also get insanely depressed during pregnancy. I don't think the enormous amount of weight I tend to gain helps at all. I can't help but think "why me??" Why did the Lord tell Tim and me that it was time to start having babies only after a few months of marriage? Why couldn't we just enjoy being together for a few years before getting pregnant? I was only 20! Come on! Why can all my friends wait years before conceiving, but Tim and I knew without a shadow of a doubt that having a child was what we needed to do right then whether we were ready or not? Don't get me wrong, I totally am obsessed with Gavin and couldn't see life without him, but sometimes I can't help but think how much easier things would be for Tim and me if we had two incomes, or how much closer we might be if we had that newly wed time together instead of me being too preoccupied with having my head hanging over the toilet. I've been coming to the realization that Tim and I need to figure out how to have fun together around having a family. We need to make sure that we take the time for eachother instead of focusing every second of every day on Gavin and the upcoming baby. We need to make our marriage our first priority.
I need a talent too. My only talent can't be making babies...there has to be more. I need to figure out something that I can do, do it well and enjoy it while I'm at it. I'm so bored with my life right now. Making babies is BORING! Blah...
Those are my thoughts, and now I'm done.

Monday, September 28, 2009

32 week checkup

I wish I was done with this whole baby making ordeal. It sucks. I want my body back. I want to be skinny again. I freakin pack on the pounds when I'm prengnant. It's pretty disgusting. Besides gaining too much weight, everything seems to be going fine, for the most part. The baby is doing great and right on track. For the life of me, I can't get my iron levels to go up. They just keep dropping despite taking extra iron supplements and eating more meat than I wish to. Last month my blood count was at a 10.2, this month it's down to 9.9. The Dr. has told me to double my dose of iron pills. Blah. I hate taking those. They make me sick. One side effect of low iron is early labor, which I wouldn't mind so much, so maybe I should keep my levels low... um...kidding, kinda. But it would suck if I had to get a blood transfusion. I've also been having heart palpitations, which is normal during pregnancy, but not as high as what I'm having. I feel like I'm going to die during these attacks. My heart rate is around 136 bpm. She's given me a few at-home remedies to try out and if that doesn't help, then she'll give me a heart monitor to wear for a couple days to see if I need medication. Why can't she just say, "Pregnancy sucks, so lets induce you a few weeks early." Again, I ask you to pray with me that I can lose all this weight and look hot once more. That is all.
P.S. Most of you know that I'm sorely lacking in the boob department. Well, I thought my boobs had gotten HUGE this pregnancy, but I guess not huge enough to have a nursing and maternity bra in my size. I feel discriminated against. Do I really have to be a C cup to truly be pregnant or nursing? Lame.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

This kid...

is crazy.

I was lying in bed and Gavin was jumping around. After he jumped and landed on my knee and I told him not to do that anymore, he said, "I'm just a little boy. I need to jump! I need to get exercise!"

My brother was wrestling with Gavin the other day. Gavin was getting a little frustrated and said, "Stop! I'm just a little kid!" and when that didn't work, Gavin said in great desperation, "I'll toot on you!"

The other morning, Tim was changing Gavin's clothes. Gavin looks down at his belly and says, "Look! I have a belly like Papa (my dad) and mom!" I knew he didn't quite grasp the pregnancy thing.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

I want this...

to bring my baby home from the hospital in.and

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Hi, my name is Tricia...

and my roommates and I are probably the coolest people you will ever see... This is from my Sophomore year in college in 2004. Enjoy...

I love Courtney's feet, Brittany's faces, Kira's sweet socks, and when Ashley is on the toilet. I LOVE you girls!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009


Gavin calls this "The Book of Woman".


One day, right after we arrive home from Costco, Gavin and I have the following conversation:

Gavin: Good job, mom!
Me: Good job for what?
Gavin: For not being mean!


Thursday, September 3, 2009


When we were in Maryland 3 years ago, we went to Gettysburg. At one of the memorials there, we saw this amazing man. We HAD to get a picture of him, but we didn't want it to be too obvious, so we had our friends take a picture of us with the guy in the background. Check out what this guy is wearing!! Tim and I were sure we were on Candid Camera or something. (Click to enlarge photos)

(Please excuse my 5 month pregnant fatness)

I don't know if you've heard of the new hit website, but it's pretty amazing. I was checking it out tonight and this is the first picture on there right now...

Um...The website says this picture was taken in Maryland and I'm pretty sure it's the same guy. It's the same see-through white spandex shorts, same purple polka-dot type underwear, same black fanny pack sitting on his left hip and the same shoes. This dude wears this outfit EVERYWHERE!

I am in love with...

My two new Petunia Pickle Bottom diaper bags. Well...technically one is a clutch, but whatever. I LOVE their outlet sales! I got these at 75% off and they're seconds and I can't find a single fault on them.

This kid can brighten any day...or destroy it in a matter of seconds. But today he is brightening it, so I'm in love with him at the moment.
Tim bought me Hunger Games for my birthday this year, and ever since I read it, I've been pretty much counting down the days until the sequel came out, which was on September 1. Since I don't have a car anymore, I asked Tim to go to work a little late so that I could go to the bookstore when it opened and get the book. He was kind enough to oblige. All you book nerds, please take the time to read these two books. This sequel is amazing. I locked Gavin in the bathroom with some food and water for the day and read it. Or maybe I just put on Shrek and he watched it 4 times in a row, or maybe it was 5, I can't remember, but I do know he got in a 3 hour nap, which was AWESOME. Oh, and I'm still kinda team Peeta. I think Gale is a wuss for taking so long to tell Katniss how he feels. Lame. Other things that I am in love with...

The fact that for the most part I'm healthy and I'm done with the withdrawal symptoms I had when coming off of the steroids. The only thing still getting me are my fractured ribs, but whatev.

BYU Football season starts on Saturday! PARTAY!

2 1/2 more months of pregnancy

My hot, hairy, hubby, Tim.

Hearing Gavin read the scriptures...SO cute!